Not written in a while. Things are not going to great here at the moment. I don't know what to do, so I am talking to myself on here to try and get my head in order. I will probably delete this anyway but it might help out.
I wish life was simpler and that the decisions you make with all good intentions didn't turn around and bite you in the arse quite so often. I wish I was happier with things and I wish I had my drive and ambition back. If you see it, email it back over to me ok? I wish it was 8 years ago and I could do things differently. I wish I could express how I feel better and not be negligent, self centred and distracted all the time.
I wish we were happy again.
About Me
- Hal
- Long time gamer and webmaster - owner of RPGMP3 - Dungeon ON! - a roleplaying site that podcasts actual play sessions and has been for a long while!
3 comments:
Hang in there, Hal.
I don't know all the stuff that's getting you down but I guess some of it might be that you are in the middle of your course(?) and you've now been in the states 18mths; the shiny newness of everything has worn off a bit and you start wondering whether you've made the right choice.
Plus, you're living in someone else's house which must be tough. I think you and Lindsay are really brave for doing what you've done, and things will get better.
Sorry, long comment - big hugs to the both of you.
You have a lot of friends in the wider world, so don't hesitate to draw on them. I lived in America (for a time I lived with my in-laws in America, in fact) and went through all sorts of ups and downs due to my situation and being away from home; it may not be quite what you're experiencing but you do face some of the same issues and they don't help to make life any easier. It's hard to see the sunny hilltop from down in the valley, but keep climbing and you'll get there.
Hal, you and Lindsay bring a lot of joy to people you don't even know. Anybody capable of doing that will end up doing alright by themselves whether they want to or not.
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